Courage

I think the Arctic Blast that the weather man has been predicting for the last week has finally hit.  It has been non stop snowing today.  I am seriously losing my mind with cabin fever.  We had such big plans today - local production of The Nutcracker, lunch at Sushi Land and finish with The Tale of Despereaux.  My daughter and I have been looking forward to this day for weeks.  Well, we only got to do 1 out of 3 - Nutcracker got cancelled and by the time we got out of Despereaux the roads were getting too dodgy so we came straight home.  

And that is were I have been for the rest of the day.  The kids have bickered and honestly, my son has gotten on every nerve of mine - and given the circumstances, I have approximately 2 left - I was saving them for Christmas day.  

So it was back to my craft room to do something....anything. It was hard to focus - I felt really edgy and just not with it.  I pulled out the Kelly Rae book for inspiration and by the looks of my photo you can see I was seriously challenged this time around.  Not as pleased with this piece as I was with the woman.  But it is kind of neat to have a 3-D effect - the wings and heart actually pop off the board.  Those tissue paper wings were a real you-know-what to make.  My glue stuff I use kept tearing the bloody tissue - I was about to shove them up some ones bum, but calmed myself enough to finish the job.  

Again I used a quote by Mary Anne Radmacher - one of my favorites of hers:

courage does not always roar. sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying "i will try again tomorrow".

You gotta love that saying. I think we've all been there in one way or another. Sometimes courage for me is just getting out of bed to face the day - which arrives after lengthy prayers for God to give it to me - please.  I think this week will be asking for the courage not to destroy my family before Christmas......

I know I should be taking this forced vacation as a gift from God - I was scheduled to work at clients all this coming week and if this snow continues there is no way I can get to them - they are all over - Gresham, Portland, Hillsboro - there's just no way. So I should be enjoying this time with my family, right? Should be enjoying this chance to create more - I sure have had the time to make some gifts for people.  These are all good things.  It just comes down to control and schedules - something I am a bit freakish about given how I grew up.  My sponsor would say this is a growth opportunity - a chance to work on letting go.  Yeah, yeah, blah, blah.  It all sounds so good in theory, but let's be honest - a few more snow days and I'll be climbing up the walls and swinging from the rafters. Now THAT could make for an interesting blog post!